This one is tough. I struggle with it.
Work used to stress me out. It still does from time to time, but not nearly as much as my old job used to. I used to thrive on adrenaline. Loved it. Craved it.
I love not having it.
I think right now, the thing that stresses me out the most, is not being a better wife.
I have such a hard time while Curt is at work.
I struggle.
I have to fight to get through the day.
Every issue I could possibly have surfaces at 7 am on a shift day. It all disappears at 7 am the next day.
I need to find a balance. A happy medium.
Between spending every second with him for 48 hours.
Then not seeing him at all for 24.
I worry. I don't listen to the scanner anymore.
I just pretend that they don't get any calls. Ever.
Hey. It's what I have to do right now.
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