Friday, December 25, 2009

Today

Today is Christmas. Merry Christmas to all of you.

I'm sitting at home, the sound of the dishwasher and the oven timer in the background. No pitter patter of little feet. No pitter patter of big feet. Curt is at work. The boys are spending their first Christmas away from me, with their dad. We woke them up super early, 5:30 am to be exact, so Curt could be here to see them open their Santa presents. They loved it. It was bittersweet for me. I loved watching their eyes light up when they opened the gifts. Yet I dreaded the clock ticking closer to drop off time. I managed not to cry yet today, I think I did enough of that last night. They are gone for over a week, so their gifts will all be taken out of the packages, assembled, put away and organized by the time they come back to me.

I could have spent the day with family, but with illness and the typical Iowa weather, and my weird need to be alone if I can't have my 3 guys, I opted to stay home and bake cookies to take up to the station.

I've already been up there once. I'm guessing this next trip won't be the last.

To everyone, have safe holiday, drive carefully and enjoy the time you have with your loved ones.

Thursday, December 17, 2009

Oh it has been too long!

It has been far too long since I've posted anything... Sorry for all the neglect!

Everything is going fairly well on all fronts...

12 weeks pregnant and counting... Nauseated all the time... Never want to eat... Already had to buy bigger pants. I am not excited about the last part. I hate buying bigger pants. Yes. I'm pregnant, I'm going to gain weight. I get it. Doesn't mean I have to like it.

The boys are doing great... Hunter turned 5 this month - Yet another milestone that I wasn't ready for. He is so grown up it is amazing. Ian is causing trouble like always.

We had our first major snowfall... 15 inches in one shot. Ew. Have I mentioned I'm not a big snow fan? I live in Iowa. I could do without the snow. And the ice. Not a big fan of that either. Maybe I should sell it on ebay like that other guy.

On the hunting front... Curt got a new bow. I'm not quite as excited as he is, but its still fun. Gets him out of the house for awhile... Gets me some deer meat.

Went shopping crazy today... But I saved over $100! I love sales! Two new sweaters, 3 new books (two that I have wanted for over two years), new NIKEs which is always WONDERFUL, and an array of lotion because I never have enough. Please be kind enough to note the sarcasm dripping from the lotion comment. I love lotion. Body lotion, hand lotion, face lotion, foot lotion, belly lotion. Scented, unscented, any scents pretty much. I love lotion! Too bad I had to stick it ALL away until Christmas. SIGH.

Hunter wants me to add that Curt is being silly right now. I think they are all being silly right now. They were watching a hunting movie, now they are all wrestling around and tickling each other. Curt is doing some evil laugh and they boys are giggling like crazy.

And me?

I am laying on the couch. I've gotten really good at that!!

Off to watch the crazy kids chase the crazy dog and tackle crazy Curt.

Doesn't get any better.

Wednesday, November 18, 2009

Ick.

This baby is going to be a handful. He or she is going to give me a hard time and grey hairs.

Every morning I feel sick. Thankfully, I haven't gotten sick yet, but it is the constant state of wanting to be.

All I want to do is sleep. I remember being tired, but this time around I don't want to get out of bed. I want to sleep for weeks. My bed is the most comfortable place in the world.

The other day I started to get dizzy. I didn't think a lot of it, just figured I was standing up too fast. I got to work and it got worse. My computer screen wouldn't stop moving. My boss and co worker ended up calling a paramedic in to take my blood pressure (which was pretty high) so I called Curt's dad to come get me since Curt was at work. Everything turned out to be fine, just trying to take it easy.

It will be nice when Curt is home more, it sounds like they only have a few more fields to go, so if the weather stays decent they could be done next week!

Off to try and fold some laundry!!

Saturday, November 14, 2009

I don't get it.

Curt is in the field today.

The boys and I are at home.

I don't understand why this is so hard for me.

Tuesday, November 10, 2009

My day.

I'm grateful for my kids. I don't know where I'd be without them.

Today I turn 23. It is just another day. Except when I woke up this morning there were already tears in my eyes. They've come frequently today.

Call it hormones. Call it spending my day alone. Curt is at work. Hunter is at school. And Ian is sitting on the floor next to me barking. He is a puppy today.

For some reason, today was especially hard dropping Hunter off at school today. I didn't want him to go. He was so cute, he stood in front of the school as I drove around the little parking lot loop to leave, I look over and there he is, waving and blowing kisses. He doesn't care if his friends see him. He doesn't care if ANYONE sees him.

Ian, my puppy, is staying close to me today. Kisses on my cheek, kisses to the baby, calling me pretty princess and sharing his ambulances.

I'm not alone, I have my precious boys by my side. At lunch, we will head up to see Curt at the station.

Because it is my birthday and I can do what I want.

Monday, November 9, 2009

Not ready

Curt talked to the farmer he works for today... They are starting corn this week.

I'm not ready.

He works every 3rd day at the station, so his two days off in between will be filled with him being out in the field. Minus doctor appointment days for the baby.

I'm not ready.

I have been trying to prepare myself for MONTHS... I knew it was coming, the rain kept pushing it back, but the inevitable is happening.

I'm not ready to not see him.

Thursday, November 5, 2009

And it begins...

And the pregnancy brain begins.

I have a REALLY hard time remembering pretty much ANYTHING while I am pregnant.

I warned Curt. I really did. Tiffany warned Curt. I think he thought we were joking.

The first thing to find a new home? The peanut butter. I was heading to the bathroom when I hear "And WHY is the peanut butter in the fridge!?"

Oops.

At least I put it away!

Wednesday, November 4, 2009

It will work... Right?

I'm about 5-6 weeks pregnant. With child number (gulp!) three. As I lay on the couch, resigned to the fact that I don't feel good (a cold, flu or something non pregnancy related) and watch my 2 year old eat Teddy Grahams while trying to keep the puppy at bay, I wonder "How the heck is this going to work?" I'm tired chasing after just 2 kids... Don't get me wrong, we are so excited to be pregnant... But 3 kids in 5 years. I need a nap. And I'm only 22. Well, 23 in less than a week but thats creeping a little too close to 25 for me. I should have more energy than this! Where is it going??

OH YEAH.

The baby. I'm convinced it is a girl already. Mainly due to the fact that she is stealing all my energy and brain cells JUST to get attention.

What if it is a girl?

What do I do with her?

I have two boys. I haven't been around little girls much.

I'd love a girl. The boys want a baby sister. I think Curt would love a daughter... She would have him wrapped around her finger in no time. Like, the second the ultrasound tech says "It's a girl!"

Either way, I will be happy.

But it WOULD be nice to have another girl in this house!!

A 5 year old, a 3 year old and a newborn. It will work.

I'm think I'm going to go take that nap now.

Wednesday, October 28, 2009

Big news...

Found out this week we are expecting...

New baby will be arriving in July!!

A day off...

Nothing but rest and relaxation today...

Curt and I both have today off so we aren't doing a whole lot of anything...

I got to take a nap this morning, Curt went and got Hunter from school so I could sleep... How wonderful!!!

Tonight we are going to go out to eat with Curt's parents, Dale and Judy and then spending the night just hanging out!

More later!

Sunday, October 25, 2009

Just one of those days...

Somedays are better than others.

Somedays I love getting out of the house to go to work, not so much lately.

These days I would give anything to stay at home all day and all night.

I feel like I am missing so much with the boys.

I get to spend all day with them and I'm am grateful for every second, but I miss staying at home with them.

Maybe someday it will be feasible. Right now it isn't really. I wish it was.

I miss my guys. All three of them.

Saturday, October 24, 2009

Ugh.

The boys are at my parents house...

Curt is in bed...

And me?

I am sick.

It is too early to be up on a Saturday morning. I didn't sleep well last night, its hard to sleep when your stomach hurts and can't sleep comfortably, nausea is taking over my life right now & my bed was empty because Curt was at work.

Now he is home and I haven't been in bed. Maybe I'll go try to pass out for a few hours and pray that whatever it is that I have, I don't share with him.

Goodnight world.

Thursday, October 22, 2009

Fall, rain and laundry oh my!

Has anyone just stopped, looked around and really noticed the fall colors? Just amazing... I feel like I'm seeing them through new eyes this year. Everything seems brighter, bolder, perfect.

It is one of those cold rain fall days... It isn't raining hard, but hard enough to be a pain and cold enough for winter coats!

Hunter is at school and Curt is hunting so Ian and I are hanging out this morning, trying to get laundry done before they go to Grandma and Papa's house tonight. Well, I'm trying to get laundry going and Ian is so enthralled with Diego right now I don't think a tornado, or even chocolate chip pancakes, could peel his eyeballs off the t.v. He doesn't get to watch cartoons much so he is enjoying this!!

This has been a nice 4 day weekend for me, I wish I could make it last longer!

Monday, October 19, 2009

And so my weekend begins...

Our schedules aren't like everyone else's. My weekend starts when everyone's week begins, or in the middle of it. Today is the start of a 4 day weekend for me but it is Monday, so we had to get up early and take Hunter to school, 20 miles away. We are home for not even 10 minutes when Curt walks up the stairs. His dad called him. Hunter's school is on lockdown. Not something a mom wants to hear... why on earth would they lock down my baby's school? I did what every self-respecting, concerned mother would do. I called the elementary. Mom's apparently get transferred... straight to the principal. (Can I just say it is REALLY weird talking to the principal as a MOM and not as the student who is trying to talk her way out of detention, suspension or whatever the punishment is that time around!) The principal informed me that the elementary is no longer on lockdown, the settlement school had a threat of a school shooting, so they locked everyone down as a precaution. Apparently all is better now.

Thank goodness. I'm not ready for him to be in school. 5 more years. Then I will let him start. Maybe.

Sunday, October 18, 2009

Little Surprises

It is the little things he does that takes my breath away... Stops me in my tracks... Get a look on my face like "Are you serious!?"... The little things that lets me know he loves me and constantly reminds me why I fell in love...

Friday we decided to go get some warmer clothes so we stopped at the mall to see what we could find. I found some shirts for the boys (on sale, bonus!) and we were just walking the mall while I was talking to Tiffany on the phone. A few minutes later, Curt starts walking into a store, I tell Tiff "Um, I gotta call you back... Curt just walked into a jewelry store." When I caught up to him in the store, he asked what color I liked, I told him I liked a light pink and pointed at something to show him what I meant. He double checked, "You like that one?" Yes I say to him... He then asked the jeweler if he could see it closer. "You like it then?" "Yes honey, I do" and I kind of sigh and walk away... I don't like to be teased. I was turned around and starting to herd the kids out when I hear him say to the lady, "Okay, we will take it". My head whipped around so fast! I think it caught the jeweler by surprise too because she was starting to put it away!

A half hour later I had a gorgeous necklace on thanks to my honey!!

~SO IN LOVE!!~

What a nice day... And a Hunter-ism

This morning, Curt got home from the station and due to the lack of children, he got to hop into bed for awhile! It was nice to not have to be up right away to go get them or have them come wake us up! (Well, wake Curt up. They don't come to my side of the bed anymore for some reason, unless he is gone.)

After he got to sleep for awhile, he went out and peeled the old stickers off the boat so he can get it painted. Hopefully maybe get it painted tonight... Or tomorrow! It will be nice to see how it turns out when everything is done on it and the blind is finished! It is going to be a CUSHY hunting boat! Damn thing will even have a stove! ;)

Today we spent the afternoon at Dale & Judy's, and had lunch with Dale, Judy, Chris (Curt's brother) and Chris' girlfriend Sam. We don't get to see Chris and Sam very often so it was nice to spend some time with them and watch the boys get to know them better!

I just talked to Curt, he is out hunting right now while the kids are at Grandma Judy & Grandpa Dale's house. He shot some ducks & got his limit, now they are waiting for the geese to come in!

Yesterday, Hunter was walking down the stairs to the toy room, and was talking to himself... All I hear is "One small step for ham... One big step for kids" I'm going to go ahead and guess it was supposed to be man... but hey, if he wants to go ahead and start taking steps on behalf of ham & ham rights... I guess go right ahead!

Tomorrow is the start of a 4 day weekend for me & today was the start of Curt's 5 day weekend... 4 days of quality time! I can't wait!!

Saturday, October 17, 2009

Busy Week Ahead

The weekend isn't over, and I'm already thinking about the massive amount of stuff we have to do this week... I'm up for it!

I have Monday, Tuesday, Wednesday & Thursday off this week so I can go to training on Tuesday. That means the boys get to spend some time with Grandma Judy and Grandpa Dale Monday and Tuesday.

Thursday night, Curt and I are going to Ames for a concert... Daughtry, Theory of a Deadman and Cavo... So the boys get to spend a couple nights at Grandma Vicky & Papa Ken's house.

Friday, Curt and I both have to work... Since boys will still be at Mom & Dad's house, HOPEFULLY I can get a bunch of cleaning done. Who knows, maybe even get ome stuff seperated for spring garage sale & a dump trip! (Wishful thinking on my part...)

Saturday grab the kids, I wanted to go to the craft show at the UNI dome, but I don't know if we will have enough time, I hope we do!

Sunday...? RELAXING...

Now it is off to run to the store quick, grab some lunch and then up to the fire department to see Curt!

Have a great day!

Wednesday, October 14, 2009

Quiet day

It has been a quiet day, we didn't do a whole lot of anything, Curt is working today so the boys and I have been just hanging out and relaxing.

Hunter had his school pictures today and he said that he smiled "big and good" so I can't wait to see them! I still can't believe he is old enough for school!

Having a baking craving lately, so tonight after the kids are tucked in, chocolate cupcakes and a homemade apple pie are getting made... Mmm I can't wait.

Tomorrow after school I think we are taking a trip to Cedar Rapids or Des Moines to either look at stuff or get stuff to finish the new boat, which will be nice. I miss the little roadtrips :)

More later...

Saturday, October 10, 2009

An inside day...

Good Morning!

We had our first illness of the year, Hunter decided to come down with the flu bug. He is feeling better today thank goodness. The poor little guy looked so pathetic last night and of course Ian didn't know what to think! He was mad because he couldn't come into the bathroom too & was a little lost that Bobo couldn't play with him!!

Today will be a busy day inside if I can get motivated... It looks too cold outside to go do anything, so it will be a laundry and cleaning kind of day.

Curt is at work until tonight, then in for his regular 24 hour shift tomorrow so the boys are getting shipped up to Grandma and Papa's house for a few hours! They can't wait!!!

Off to tackle the laundry monster...

Friday, October 9, 2009





Changes

As you can tell from the title of the blog, we have gone under a "family reconstruction".

Chad and I are getting a divorce, in June, the boys and I moved out. We spent some time living in Grundy Center (Thanks again Mom, Dad & Grandma) and have since moved to Marshalltown.

A new relationship has started, I starting seeing a wonderful guy by the name of Curt. He and I have been friends for awhile, we used to work together a few years ago & have re-connected. He works as a full time fire fighter/EMT with the Marshalltown Fire Department, which allows him to be home quite often. The boys absolutely adore him and they all get along great!! I'll probably let him take over a post so he can tell you more about himself... :-)

It has been a whirlwind summer for all of us and we have gone through some much needed changes, but everything has turned out for the better and we are all doing great.

I hope you will follow along and enjoy life with us on our journey as a new family!!

Friday, February 6, 2009

More pictures

The picture where you can see the house - the car was parked right next to the snow that is next to the house - right in front of the front door.





Fire Pictures

Here is the rundown... I get home from work, think I hear a car door - look outside nothing. Hear it again, still nothing. I hear a funny sound like a rotor - look at my car (which is parked in front of the front door, right next to the house), brake lights are flashing. First thought through my head was did I forget to turn my car off?? See smoke and flame, go into the bedroom. Here is the conversation...

Me - Chad. Chad. CHAD. HONEY. WAKE UP.
Chad - Mumbles
Me - I think there is something wrong with my car.
Chad - Why?
Me - Because it is on fire.

That is when Chad jumps out of bed and runs out to look at it. Should I call the fire department I say - He says no, he can handle it. I get the fire extinguisher - that doesn't work so I call 911 (a.k.a. MY WORK). After that frantic phone call, Chad and I try pushing the car away from the house. Try putting it in gear then pushing it away from the house. Chad gets the skidloader and SHOVES it away from the house. We go inside - tires start to blow - we get behind a wall. And wait. And wait. And Wait. FINALLY fire trucks come rolling in and eventually get the fire put out. From the time I called 911 to the time the fire department went on scene - 9 minutes. Not bad for it being 12:45 am and living 6 miles outside of town. And remember, this was a volunteer fire department - they had to wake up, get out of their house, go to the station, put their turnout gear on, and drive to my house. THANK YOU!!

There is a fuzzy picture at the bottom - Chad was in the process of moving it
The top picture - above the date is my rear drivers side tire